Lucid Dream Journal: Memoir 2, Poppee & My Epiphany

I have been sent to a large and hauntingly old University. The University is called "Busters". I walk down a wide and long hallways with beautiful wooden floors and high ceilings. I am carrying luggage with me and I keep thinking, "Why do I have to live in a University dorm, if I can just live with my husband?" I am bearing mixed feelings of anger and disappointment and I am overcome by an overall desire to leave this new residence.

In a lapse of dreamtime, I am sitting in my room watching other students walk down the hallway and past my room's door.

Some more dreamtime goes by, and the next thing I remember is gazing out onto a body of water...possibly a pond located on the University's premises. I am wishing my husband was by my side. I am called to a gymnasium and end up sitting beside two friends, a girl with curly blonde hair and another with brown hair. It turns out that we are supposed to be watching a concert but the scheduled performer flaked out and did not show up for his own show. My friends volunteer me to fill in this performer's spot. They want me to sing, "Killing Me Softly". I am convinced, but very reluctant and take the center stage with a huge and hot spotlight shining down on me. I am nervous but proud all at the same time.

More dreamtime goes by again and I am still at the University. There is another gathering in the gymnasium...I think it is the end of my schooling...some kind of graduation. I do not want to go for some reason. As I reach down to pick up my packed bags, I see a huge roach climb into it. I tell myself that this will not stop me and I pick it up with courage. Somehow I end up in the gym with hundreds or thousands of other students. Most of them look like models or glamorous movie stars. I am suppposed to go up on stage and receive some award but I am too nervous to go. I do not want these people to stare at me and judge me...I feel hideous. I am anxiously talking to my friends beside me when my Poppee walks up to me. He is younger and glowing with life. He is walking! He has both legs again! He grabs me by the hand and begins walking me to the stage. He does not talk with his mouth but with his heart and he sweetly whispers to me, "You need to stop comparing yourself to this ugly world. You are beautiful on the inside and outside. But because of your soul, your beauty is glowing on the outside right now." I look down and notice that I am suddenly wearing an ethereal dark purple evening gown. Poppee speaks again, "You need to look at yourself how I see you...as royalty! After all, you are wearing the color of royalty."

Poppee walks with me to the center of the stage and the crowd ceases their chattering and stares at me in utter awe. People are smiling as I receive my graduation award and step down excitedly from the stage. I am so overly delighted to be with my Poppee again and he looks like he is full of life and totally radiant. My friends talk to me for a bit, but I keep wanting to be with Poppee. He repeats to me over and over how proud he is of me. I feel so unbelievably happy that he is with me right now in this moment that I cry, out of sheer joy. Poppee leaves and I am left with my friends.