Going Back to the Same Familiar Place in a Dream: Lucid Dreaming Memoir
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Have I been here before? Dream Deja Vu
If you are an experienced or advanced lucid dreamer, you will have had dreams that seem to take you back to the same places...sort of like a dream deja vu.
When I first started recording my dreams in a dream journal about 4 years ago, my dreams would take me many different places...from quiet intriguing libraries to busy malls, common airports to little mountain-side towns, from quaint little farms to luxurious flying airplanes. After years of recording these dreams and the settings of each dream (at least the ones I can remember), I reviewed every one of my recorded dreams and found that many of my dream settings started to seem very similar...like my dreams were almost taking me back to the same places...places where my mind was longing to go.
It seems odd to think that our minds could so vividly remember a made-up world, a dreamworld. It is almost like my mind has a map to my dreamworld and even though I may not choose to go to these certain places, I somehow remember having been there before. It is a feeling that is very much like deja vu in reality but much much stronger. When you realize that you have been to that same place before in your dreams, it is almost like the place truly exists and you become very comfortable and can even explore the dreamscape a little.
My advice to any beginning lucid dreamer is to record every dream you remember, whether you are lucid or not...eventually you will notice a pattern in your dreams' settings and scenery. After you have established that these dreamworld patterns exist in your mind, you will notice that you will become more aware of your dream surroundings and more lucid within your dreams.
I have decided to share some of my most favorite and sacred dreamscapes in this hub...maybe you have been to a similar spot in your dreams? Maybe reading about my dreamscapes will aid your dream memory and remind you of some familiar dreamworld of your own...
The Floating Bar
One recurring dreamscape that I visit quite frequently in my dreams is what I call the Floating Bar. I call it the Floating Bar because it seems to be floating in air, but it could also be floating in water depending on the dream I am having. To enter this floating bar, I have to climb up a rope ladder on the left side of the bar...and I even have a favorite bartender who always serves me when I visit! The bar's atmosphere is sort of a sailing-tropical feel, mostly wooden stools and the bar is also wooden. This is the kind of bar you would go to during a relaxing vacation to drink mai tais or daquiris and to listen to the crashing waves below.
The floating bar was the setting for one of my dreams of Lady Gaga, titled Glitterazzi. The link to this hub is posted below, if you would like to check it out.
The floating bar has made appearances whenever I have a dream that I am on a large cruise ship. Usually if the floating bar is present within my dream, I know that this dream will usually be a more calm and subdued experience. In essence, the floating bar to me equals serenity and fun.
My Retro Home
I have had at least three dreams in which I come back to a familiar house...a retro house that seems new but is decorated with all nineteen-forties and nineteen-fifties furniture and appliances. This house is situated in a very green yard, with an old abandoned brick building across the street from it and a large oak tree to the right of the house. There is also forests of green maples and pines behind this house. I feel like this is a house that could possibly be my dream-home...obviously a home within my dreams but it is also what I would like to literally make my residence one day. This house makes me feel warm and comfortable whenever I am within it, and it also makes me feel safe and secure...like nothing scary or terrifying could happen to me within this house. I have had at least one dream in which I was the most lucid I think I have ever been within a dream, and I have that dream as a hub as well. The title is Lucid Dream Journal: Memoir 1, Three Clocks and A Beach.
In one of my dreams in which I was purchasing my retro home, I remember walking around the house and through the kitchen and looking through a glass door to the backyard of the house. The forests were not present at this point, but instead there was a dilapidated ghetto looking neighborhood some fifty yards away from my beautiful dreamhome. I decided to ignore it and buy the house, anyway...it was like that scary threat in the backyard was not even a threat as long as I was safe in my dreamhome's walls. The energy of this dreamhome seems to embrace me and tell me, "Welcome Home" whenever I visit. Do you have a dreamhome in your dreams? Tell me about it!
The Abandoned Brick Town
A more somber and lonely feeling dreamscape that I visit is a town I like to call the Bricktown. It seems abandoned and dilapidated and yet it also reminds me of an older, quaint little town in Maryland that I used to live nearby. Most of the time when I visit Bricktown, there is not another soul around and I feel lost...but then it dawns on me that I have been in this town before.
A few nights ago I visited Bricktown again, and I almost immediately remembered that this was one of my familiar dreamscapes. At that point, I became vividly lucid and decided to do a bit of exploring. I walked up the steps to one of the old brick buildings and knocked on the door. Unfortunately for me, before the dream stranger could answer my beckoning, I awoke from this dream.
A few other times that I have visited this Bricktown I was in an automobile. I literally just drove through this dreamscape and I can remember specifically that there was a bridge just on the other side of the town...waiting for me to drive over it.
I think that this Bricktown symbolizes my passageways in life...it is a very silent yet familiar and humble place that I use as a median to get to a different destination within my dreams. I would like to go back and spend a little more time in Bricktown...maybe I could knock on that door again and see who answers! Maybe there is some sort of waiting and hidden knowledge in store for me there...
Revisiting Real Places from Your Past
Other dreamscapes that seem to pop up in my dreams quite often are real places from my past...more specifically homes from my childhood. One of these homes was where I grew up and experienced all of my loving and good childhood memories...my grandparent's house. In the yard outside of my bedroom window to this house, I fly around and land in the pine and willow trees. I also fly down the street and gaze down at the houses below...recalling each view and somehow connecting those visions to my good memories. The funny thing is that I can remember each house and each road in that entire neighborhood, and I can tell you what my grandparents' phone number at that house was for many years. This house symbolizes a place of comfort and love to me. I love this dreamscape the most.
A few other childhood homes awaken me in my dreams, some of them symbolizing and forcing me to remember the not-so-good childhood memories...memories of dark and sad times for me...memories that I mostly want to forget. Maybe I take myself back to these childhood homes in order to solve or heal some sadness left in my heart from real events that occurred in these places.
Do you travel back to your childhood homes in your dreams? What do you think each of these homes symbolize to you? Do you think there are lessons to be learned from these dreams? If so, you should be recording all of these dreams and your reactions to these dreams in your dream journal.
Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you. ~Marsha Norman
Read My Other Hubs on Dreaming
- Conscious (Lucid) Dreaming: A Beginner's Guide
To most people, dreaming is nothing but a nightly, collective stream of garbled thoughts and images from the day or days before. But there are those that view and use their dreams as a pathway to... - Lucid Dream Journal: Memoir 1, Three Clocks & A Beach
I am in my home, but it is possibly a home from the future...or maybe the past. Or maybe it is my home in my dreamworld, I am not totally sure. I walk out of the fifties-retro farmhouse kitchen and onto my... - Lucid Dream Journal: Memoir 2, Poppee & My Epiphany
I have been sent to a large and hauntingly old University. The University is called "Busters". I walk down a wide and long hallways with beautiful wooden floors and high ceilings. I am carrying luggage with me... - Glitterazzi: A Dream of Lady GaGa
The Beautiful Lady GaGa Last night I had a very random but intriguingly, beautiful dream. The first scene of the dream began in a grocery store, or possibly a smaller convenience store. I was browsing the...
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I was always happy in my dreams, excited well imagine the feeling when you finally going to live in your dream house, the feeling is strange, it's like I can't believe we owned those house... maybe your right both parents often appeared in dreams when I am not feeling well or having some problems. I am an only child too, I guess they are still really worrying about me
Kitty I had another dream that I need to tell you a complicated one.....it's like this, I was in a beach and in this beach there's this very narrow bridge (the width is just enough to accomodate one foot) that I had no Idea where it ends but it goes through the farther part of the sea, what I had noticed about that sea was, it was too shallow that I go further and further but disappointed that I just went back to the shore, and surprisingly while going to the shore the sea became a road where every one is crossing. Then I reached this place a small building, and one person who seemed to work there told me I stole Virgin Mary's tears, but deep in my heart I know I did not do it and I have never stolen anything in my whole,that I Just said Mama Mary knows the truth, if you don't believe me she will... that's it, been dreaming always in a strange place and with people I am not familiar, and by the way in that shallow sea I saw my closest cousin too, in reality he is very close to me but we just greeted each other and we go on crossing.. thanks, actually this dream happened a day after that dream I mentioned above... thanks again I really appreciate it.
I have and still do much of these things with my own dream work, I have done this work for years now. Since I have always had just so many of them, now I write them as stories here. This is great therapy. Voted up and useful, informative hub. Thank you.
Hi,
Glad I stumbled upon your site here. I dream alot and vividly. But how does one record or write down dreams right away when you have a partner asleep next to you? But recently when i awake i consciously try to remember as much as i can and it does seem to stay with me.
Over the last while, i have begun to notice that I remember things from previous dreams while dreaming. For example, when giving directions to someone, I referred to a set of roads that I knew about from a different time (a different dream) that I realized that the other person wouldn't have known abot because he didn't experience those raods like i had previously. That may sound confusing but basically other previous dreams will 'sneak' into a current dream.
Another aspect of dreams that you wrote about is recurring dreams, like being in your child hood house. Been there, done that lots. Also,a haunted house became so familiar that I eventually could give guided tours in it to others. But then you mention this is lucid dreaming? I have never understood that term, but if lucid dreaming is having recurring dreams and knowing the place or activity so well that you can make yourself comfortable in them when they occur, then I have been lucid dreaming for years. Yet, it is not as though i can really control the action that takes place since i am not conscious that i am in a dream per se, just that I am in a very familiar setting and "know my way around" in it. I thought lucid dreaming was when you can literraly control what you do because you fully realize that you're dreaming. Guess i am but comforted to know that remembering snippets of other dreams when dreaming and knowing my way around familiar places in dreams is actually lucid dreaming. Do I have it correct now?
Thanks so much - I may come back here if you are interested in hearing others' actual dream content.
Thank you,
Hue
Hey Kitty, Ive been dreaming strongly every night for 2 years now. I'm not sure when it started to happen, but all i know is, i wake up and remember everything that happened.
It feels like i haven't even slept. Just as if, Ive been awake all night.. Running, doing things, seeing people.
My dreams have been about all different things and places. and i can say, ALL of the places my mind has made up, I revisit whenever i dream.
I have a highway road, a shopping center, my local town, and places around it. Even places i visit on a daily basis are changed and placed in the wrong area.
I Can remember reoccurring dreams form when i was younger, till now. I don't know if its an amazing thing, or something i should wish i didn't have.
I wake up alot and be confused with real life and dreaming, its that strong.. Almost like I go to another world.
The strange thing is, 90% of the time i dream.. its night. and dark, eerie even.
what do you think about this? any kind of answer would be appreciated..
thanks,
Sarah.
Its very nice to meet you too :)
I never read books or learnt from anyone. It just started happening out of nowhere. Every night WITHOUT fail.
I'm not sure if i am scared so to say.. More like, interested, confused, and really just want to connect with it more.
I haven't so much dreamt things that have happened, but i have had a feeling of something bad happening in the night time.. eg: Sometimes when i go outside at night time i have a really mysterious feeling come over me, as if i know something bad is going to happen that night. And sometimes it does.
and another day, i had a very random thought of a man i knew dying. In a car, it was sunset.. and i think it was raining.. It was the most sudden thought i had ever had before. And i could feel that it meant something.
About a month later, i found out that he had committed suicide.
I had told him the first time i met him about how i felt i had a connection of some sort with people, being able to feel there emotions. and he was a very, understanding man, as if he understood what i was telling him. So it really struck me when i heard the news of his death.
I'm not sure if you personally believe in being able to feel someone elses feelings. But i did when i was about 16.
My dreams are not just of me.
I dream of being other people.
One dream i had was based along time ago, it was late 1800's early 1900's. It was of 2 brothers. They where on horse back, going through some mangrove trees, it was black and white for me. I can still remember the clothing they where wearing.. its like a Memory that has happened to me.. They came across a shack, i think it was there fathers. They where going to stay there the night.. Then came 2 men, they started to beat up the older brother, and took hold of the younger one.. I then woke up.
i also had another of a Women who had her child taken from her, She then went on a killing spree. I then turned into her, and i was stabbing so many people in the neck, and then the chest. I could feel the knife go into there neck, the bones crushing.. everything.. it was the most scary thing to wake up from, it was so real. and it feels like a memory to me.. I just don't understand why i would get such graphical dreams.
I'm not sure if they are signs, like if that actually happened and the brothers wanted to give me a message, i don't know. It sounds silly, but i don't understand why else i would even get these dreams, there is no way in hell that it was something from my Subconscious.
I don't have a journal, i have been thinking about making one for a while now though.
What is a dream guide exactly?
i just looked up empath. It looks like I am one for sure. It was much stronger a few years ago though. I will definatly look for that book, it may have answers to some of my questions.
Oh wow, so you also have dreams from different times.
I do know a little about reincarnation. And i have thought about if it is that a fair bit. But i am not too sure.
Because when i think back on some of my dreams, I realise that i have had alot of dreams from all different times and places.
I am going to start a journal now. And try it out.
I always used to fly in dreams when i was younger. It was my way of escaping anything that was bad.
These days, I need to realise that I am dreaming before I can fly.
I had a dream last night of a place that i always go to in dreams.
It's a train station, with LOTS of glass walls and LOTS of escalators. When i was younger, and still these days, i have dreams of escalators and stairs that are very very steep. It feels like I'm going to fall to my death.
I am also a Computer Gamer.
I play competitively, and i play about 38 hrs every 2 weeks. I read an article about Gamers being able to Control dreams better than that average person. The article was sort of like this:
This is interesting. I never actually tried this before, which is odd, considering I've been actively practicing lucid dreaming the last seven years. Well, it's a great idea and you present a very good technique. I'll give it a shot next time I become lucid and we'll see how it goes. :]
My dreams have always been lifelike but now I wake up exhausted and I wake in a good or bad mood according to the dream. I have reoccurring dreams about several places and themes. What really throws me off is going to places I've never even seen pics of or anything. Last night I was on a cliff o oceanside, it was 5am and a lot of people and I were there for sunrise. I was crying and writing in a little journal (I don't in real life) then its scary and its like I'm in a
Oops, sorry. Its like I'm in a dark scary alley, I can see lights and maybe a festival but I'm in this alley and these scary people keep popping up and I need to find this girl who's been tortured somewhere. The only way I know where to look is by cursive writing that appears in front of my eyes, like reading a poem, it was eleaquently written. I have lots of I guess what you'd call lucid dreaming, I must look into it. There's this mostly glass home that must be mine, I go there a lot and when I'm there, somehow I know its home. And I'm on rooftops lately.
Thanks, I definitely will. I was always raised Christian but lately these places are so real and sometimes I'm not always me. So it really makes me wonder!
hello kitty, i've never taught my self to lucid dream but i have very vivid dreams each night that i remember to every last detail when i wake up, i can still tell you dreams that i had months ago now, they aren't mundane dreams either they are very peculiar, and although this doesnt happen every night, sometimes i go to a dream and it's in a place where i've been before, like the deja vu thing you mentioned, and i feel very comfortable in these dreams despite whats happening as there is one place i go to quite regularly, that i have never seen in my life, and there is someone who watches over me there, but every dream i have has a very strong link to fantasy/magic/supernatural, whatever you would like to call it, i was just wondering what you would make of this? do you believe that dreams are another state of consciousness much similar to what we will enter when we die?
Hello Kitty ^^, i'v always had weird or dark dreams and i'v never understood what they meant. When i think the dream really means something i look it up ,but i can't find the answer's i'm looking for, SO i just so happened to stumble upon this. There are a few things I have questions about if you don't mind.
For starters when I was younger I used to have darker dreams..such as being killed,or watching myself being killed.I would also have repeated dreams of seeing my dog that had ran away,run away from me. I'v also had dreams where i had for seen what was going to happen? For example when I was going into fifth grade I had a dream I was in a class room playing on the floor with a friend with toy blocks. After awhile I forgot about the dream,but then i did move to a new school for a little bit and I ended up in that same class room playing with the same blocks and person.After sitting there I kept thinking that this place seemed familiar,my mom just told me I was having deja vu. I tend to do this sometimes and then think that i'v been in this spot or area before with the same people.
Now, when I was smaller for these dark dreams I would throw some sort of fit before I was able to sleep,which was I would itch, my legs, arms anything uncontrollably,then I would have some sort of a night mare,but I never really woke up with startled from up I just woke up. Yes I do love horror and things like such, and after awhile I just thought it meant nothing,that they were just bad dreams but mostly all of my dreams are dark.
One of those dreams consists of me repeatedly seeing myself (older) in a hospital bed,with I think my mother by my side and I had a gas mask over my mouth. My best friend was there and someone else was as well.
Now here is a dream I had recently woken up from..this morning and It's the second or third time I'm having this dream. Basically the dream starts out with something completely different then just jumps to me coming from school,with a friend or alone,or just somewhere where I just got out of school. This dream consists of me going back to this old..house, it's big or at least it seems that way,but it's dark and white. There's no one there ,but me and I explore the place each time I go back,it's the same ,but there seems to be different parts of the house . When i first got to the house I was with a friend then I was alone,iand i came out through the back side for some reason. I had walked up the normal path I would take when I leave school then I t was a forest suddenly,Then I would go home and lay in my bed, for some reason I won't explore inside the house.I would stare at my bedroom door,which was black, or just dark. I live in an apartment and the door looks the same as my apartment.Now this time I take the same path but i'm wrapped in a blanket and I come out from the front of the house, and the things is ,is that I went around the back to check and see if that hole was there,and it's the same place I came out from the back,from my other dream. I explored the from area and then got scared so I went inside and laid on my bed again,staring at my door till I woke up.
I'm sorry for having asked all this at once,but I have many dreams and I always think they mean something,but I don't know who to ask.
hi kity,
i just wanted to know the meaning of this dream.. that i always going back to the place that ive worked before.one day im just having a stroll with some friends or relative then the next thing i saw was the place is different and that place was where i worked, then i wanted to stopped by the shop to surprise and say hi to the old friends back there.. but never happened as something came out like that... then sometimes im running with my partner looking for my favorite food store to buy food.but never get there because we cannot find the place.. and then there was a time i am together with my old friends back there, giggling about.. oh! ur back! etc.
Hi Kitty,
I'm so happy to have found this post. I have also noticed that I visit the same places in my dreams repeatedly. Like you said, it feels like I know these places. I had a dream last night which has stuck with me in which someone asked me for directions to a place from a previous dream. I have both vivid and hazy recollections of this place, if this makes any sense to you. However, I was unable to provide the directions, but I had a strong recollection in my dream of the place.
Thanks again for your posts. I've always been very intrigued at the concept of locations within dreams and have been curious if these places exist in some level of consciousness.
Hi kitty..
i just wanna share my dream with you. couple of months ago I dreamed about a wonderful place on the mountain.. there was a huge, beautiful buddhist temple.. at the bottom part of the temple there was this huge door which leads you outside (back of the temple) there you can see a very very huge black reclining buddha at the bottom of the stairs.. & if you look on the right side, there was this small stream. in my dream i was with my friend (boy) which i havent seen for years now.
Last night, it really feels that it was the continuation of my dream in that temple. In my dreams, i've been brought into that temple.. everything seems familiar. when i look around i saw that huge door at the bottom of the hall, it really looks so familiar so i rushed to open the door, to my surprise, everything looked the same, the huge black reclining buddha and the stream at the right. then in my dream, i remembered being there with my friend and i even mentioned my friend's name..
after remembering everything, i then told a monk that i've been there before and i'm 100% sure of it.. the monk just smiled at me its as if he knows what's going on.. then later that day i was given a beautiful dress and told me that i am destined to stay there.. i couldn't believe it so i run in to an empty room. when i entered the room, there was this man, he looked at me with a very jealous eyes, when he came closer to me, it was so clear, the man has a goat's horn. i was so terrified that i rushed tru the huge door and went straight down the stairs passing through the buddha & going through the stream.. I fell in the water then i woke up.
i find it so weird since im not a buddhist. i tried to search google this morning thinking that maybe that place really exist. Actually i have had a lot of repeated dreams but this one seems to be so real. the fear and excitement that i felt seems to be so real..
Thank you for spending some time reading my dream story.. ^^
hi i like to ask neone if you know abt dis. i had just complete my
hi i loke to ask if neone knws abt it . i hd jst completed my college earlier i seen places in my dreams. its nt lyk its a good ddream or bad dream jst ki i had seen it n whn i m dere it jst stuns me yes i hd been here n its smthng different feelin. i see every point on the room d fan d exact corner .... or smwher outside d same structure n all. please do tell me jst wat is dis why i see things or places earlier. its really nt ever helped me to get out of smthng jst see places thn i frgt n whn i m dere i felt n remembered yes i had seen d place. please do tell me if neone knws abt dis nethng will help me coz i really want to knw dis more than nethng.
Hi Kitty,
I'm back again.. just last night I had this dream about the man with goat horns. It's not the same place in the mountain though but I swear it's somewhere familiar.. Well in my dream I wasn't scared of that man anymore and I even tried to approach him head on... But to my surprise the man grabbed me as if he's going to kill me.. but he didn't he just whispered something and as far as I can remember he said "They need your teeth go and hide amd never return to the temple" I asked him who are "They" but he just vanished like a bubble.. then I remembered after talking to the man with goat horns someone ran after me if I'm not mistaken it'sa monk and told me to never tell anyone about my teeth or else someone will die & he said before he left that "don't let even one tooth fall down" then he left.. without any clarifications I woke up..
please tell me what does my teeth have to do with this dream and what is the message that they're trying to tell me? and why won't the man with goat horns let me go back to the temple where I first met him? please help me undrstand this dream.. :)
Hi Kitty!
Can you tell me anything about "Night Terrors" ? from your own expierience, assuming youve had any and if so what is your personal meaning behind why they occur?
Thanks :)
Hi kitty and to you too carissa..
I have had "sleep paralysis" since I was in highschool until now.. but this past few months I suffered from it almost evryday and its really scary when you know you are awake,. you can either see or hear some people around you but you cant move and as what kitty said, its really scary since u can feel some presence near you..
I just want to share with you my experience about the so called nightmares or shall we say spiritual attack.. when I was young, I dont play with dolls or any stuffed toys I didn't know the whole reason not until my mom told me when I was in my freshman in highschool. My mom told me that 1 Evening in summer I just burst in crying and mom said that I looked so scared.. She went to the room and asked me what happened. To her surprise I told her to burn all the dolls and toys immedietly since Im scared coz they're talking to me, asking me to be their friend. my mom oviously didn't believe me but she took all my toys in the stock room.. they thought that as a kid I 'm probably having nightmares and stuff like that, I thought so myself too not until when I was in junior high. I don't live with my parents at that time since they worked abroad. My cousin usually stay with me but there's this 3 days that she'll be out of the country for business.. the first night being alone in our apartment seems to be so freaky.. I was asleep when I heard someone called my name I don't consider this as a dream since I know I'm wide awake when I heard my name being called.. As I stretched to see if who's calling me, I saw this tall man in black suit, I didn't see his face though.. I wad about to scream but he just vanished.. until now I still had this feeling when that man is near.. Im not saying that I'm a psychic or whatever you call that.. But I can feel it whenever he's around and from that moment on I'm having this dream about him almost every night.. In my dreams he's always giving me apples and something to eat I could see his face so clearly but I always forget every detail of his face when I wake up..
I didn't know what to do about this.. is this some kind of a haunting? if so maybe I should try what you said about a blessing.. what can you suggest about this please help me..
very often have same dream with 'a map', small trails, mountains, big house with secret corridors to rooms, and a forest.
Hi Kitty,
I usually don't remember my dreams, but the past two nights my dreams have been very strange. The first is easily explainable. I lost my voice and my work situation hasn't been great. The second is the one that concerns me.
I was in the room of a girlfriend, or it felt that way strongly, only it was not her room. There was a bed and next to the bed was a partition and on the other side was a fold out couch that was out. There were blankets as if someone was sleeping there. The room felt like a studio apartment only there was a corridor that I could see there was a home there. I was going through the dresser, but couldn't find anything I was 'looking' for. When I left, I was lost and was near my high school. I didn't get the feeling that I was in school. I was completely lost and couldn't find my way. People I knew (my brother, my best friend) drove by without recognizing me. The anxiety of being lost where I was completely familiar with was overwhelming.
Going months even years between remembering dreams is normal for me, but remembering two dreams in successive nights is almost as unnerving as the second dream. What is going on? Thanks. Brent
Not gay, but the identity crisis thing seems plausible. I have been demoted at work, but I thought that's what the no voice dream was about. I think it's the frequency of remembering dreams that is most troubling to me. With the second dream, I felt aware that I was dreaming but couldn't control it. With the infrequency of My remembering dreams, would a journal help remembering or a waste of time. I go by both names. One with friends and fam and one every where else. Thanks for your time.
Always Had low self esteem. I don't really feel like no one pays attention to me. I have 3 kids 4 and under, so I get plenty of attention, positive reinforcement and loving gazes and hugs.

















Maria Cecilia Level 4 Commenter 15 months ago
Hi Kitty, can't find a way to just email so I decided to comment here... not sure if something similar to this but you know, I always dream about my parents (both died already) especially my mother... I dreamed of her before and we are in a big house, and it gave me the feeling that we own the house and I felt overwhelmed because my house was never big and always simple... then I dreamed of her again in a different date or years, we are in a different house another beautiful big house with cabinets and sofa...... and just yesterday during my afternoon nap, I was talking to her again in our big house different from the too, and we were talking about exchanging bedrooms because she wanted the one with the couch... I always dream of her lately, I guess I dreamd of her again, making a basket full of mini cakes.... that one for now... wondering if they are worrying about me coz I'm quite sickly lately